/and my heart BEATS again ;

Saturday, November 06, 2004
wheee. beijing here i come. =D

feeling so terribly sian. lolz. confirm not allowed to blog later on in de wee hours b4 da flight. stupid flight like so early lor. hmph. no need sleep le. so gonna blog now. and sleep. try to la. lolz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH !!!! =D
sobz jie. sorri today didnt go bedok north to gib u ur present. =1
jia you for Viva La Musicale worxx. =))

and an early
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SITI & MARCUS & AJINKYA!!! =D
yepz. wish u all first coz i wont be in singapore to celebrate wif u all =( sobz.
siti. happy bday worx. i remembered ur present. dont worri. =))
marcus kor. yay. haha. thx for agreeing to coming fer Opus. happy birthday!!! =D
ajinkya. nv visit regent le ah. =( lolz. happy bday worx.

i love gillian to bits!!!
awww. she send me de Ren Wo Ao You de song.
i'm so so glad!! =D

dumdeedum. woke up. didnt go bedok north today. =1 boo.
continued packing luaggage and stuff. so many clothes sia. oni gone for a few days wat. lolz.
smsed here and there in the afternoon. lolz. played Cheat. then rot on the couch. arghh. siannn. lala. i'm bringing a freaking lot of money over there lor. parents a bit over-worried. LOLZ. =x

aileen has the same hp model as me now.
-points at her. COPYCAT.- kidding.
lolz.
dad wants to buy a new car. a toyota.
i hope its blue. =) totally lurve toyotas to bits.
aniwae i have car sickness. so buy le i oso cannot sit. hmph. =(

aniwae feel like saying a short prayer before leaving singapore. for all u know the plane might crash b4 reaching there. -choy-
-prays- -blah blah- -private-
...and i pray that you will bless all those taking their O levels'.
********** **** *******.
in Jesus's name i pray . Amen. =)

// cheat rox. haha.

// whiteee. wahah.

o well. see u all soon in a few days time. must miss me horz. -bhb- haha. bubbye.
i want First Love de song. =1

- i love you
fifteen yrs

Friday, November 05, 2004
band tutors rox. wahah. =))

band again ahhh. tutors rox. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VINOTH & KEITH!!
yepz. vinoth. =)) yehh. dont talk to u that much in class but still. happy bday.
keithhhh. ex classmates n now church frenz. haha. God bless =))

o mann. gill juz told mi something on msn. and its like. midnight. i should have know better than to tell them bout it. now its like spreading like wat sia. lolz. its not a NEOPRINT. its a . CARD thing. wateva. lolz.
the -ahem- thing. lolx.

dumdeedum. band early in da morning. yehh. so was like tuning when p6s from neighbouring schools and such entered the music room. and we had to each intro our intruments. yeh. so i intro my Eb. lolz. Bb clar laypeng intro mahz. then like only those from CCK primary de so enthu and cute. lolz. de la salle didnt even enter. =(
then many sec 4s came to join us fer combine today. so glad. =)) esp when vanet and zoey came in. was like the whole band started to become more livelier. haha. yeh. even mr lim was like smiling now and then. lolz.
went through some pieces today. first one up sounded nice but a bit messy. yepz. then second piece so happy for yokelian. she can play da solo le =)) [in case you'r wondering why i'm not naming the pieces. its becoz i'm lazy. lolz.] then third piece. arghh. mr lim was like totally suaning me or something. coz my pitch for that note was the highest and he was like " yes i know its very high but u have got to try/use tuner to practice that note! " geez. so malu lor.
aniwae i'm starting to kinda like Die Meinstersinger a bit more though i hated it to the core b4. wahah. so if we'r playing this piece for Opus, then we'll be the first ever secondary school band to play this piece. -beams-
then some section tutors came and we played some pieces together lor. yeh. the oboe tutor came and when he sat down beside me, he looked at my Bb clarinet on de floor and turned it or something. dunno leh. think he was putting it the correct way bahz. yepz. nice tutor. haha.then had sectionals. sian lor. lolz.
aniwae laypeng keep laughing so it made sectionals much more livelier. haha. yehh. then had stock checking by QM dept. yeh.
then went to Macd with amy again. n hayati, aileen n yokelian. crapped about. saw kelvin. ~~aiyer.~~ lolz.

helping faeliq to advertise this. not me ah.--->
A wind instrument needs servicing once a month to be in perfect condition.I offer servicing for woodwind instruments for a rate of $7 per instrument.My service includes:Oiling of keys, tightening of screws, checking and tightening of springs, checking of rust and sticky keys, checking and replacing of cork(if needed) and polishing(laquered instruments only). A report would be given thereafter.
soo. anyone interested? lolz. look fer faeliq. =))

haha. violin teacher was on MC on wednesday. so i'm getting extra lessons. even though i didnt even turn up coz i overslept. lolz. =x

// haha. i wished so too. =1

// must buck up for Opus worx. =))

lala. going to bedok north tml . pei charles. then zeting yvonne others going too. dumdeedummmm.

- i love you
fifteen yrs

Thursday, November 04, 2004
band. bravo brass boo.

dumdeedum. bandd. =)) home.
zining wished me 'happy very early birthday' last nite. geez. and she wants me to tell everyone. yeh. everyone zining is FIRST. ok -.- haha.

banddd.
we'r not playing Samba De Loves You. -burst into tears- sobzzzz. =(
o well. had sectionals n then combine. ok bahz. mr lim says he'll only let us sight read the SYF set piece in december coz want us concentrate on Opus bahz. lala. he says its a bit like Yellow Mountains. ahh. i LOVE Yellow Mountains. =) so i can predict it'll be a realli nice song. muaha.
aniwae mr lim wants our usual de encore piece to be PART of the repetoire. argh. the new encore piece is -arghhh-. i hate that one. ok. shall shaddup. =X
then tried Die Meinstersinger today. o yeah. though everyone hates this piece for its bored-ness, mr lim is right. if the band manages to pass through this piece de 'hurdle' then our standards will certainly be raised de lor. yepz. so today mr lim went through da demisemiquavers. then i played then he and some other ppl were like laughing at me when i played. wattt. its too fast. hmph. laugh at me. =(
anyway ticket sales Tubas & Double Bass leading le. bleh. clarinets must quickly catch up. lolz.
and mr lim wants 45 sec 1s next year .wahh. lolz.

after band then got some probs. yeah. had a hard time with the others comforting this poor sec 1 boi. lolz.
then went to eat with amy at macd and chit chat. yeah. taught her a bit of Tekomai. lolz. lala.
watched ren wo ao you. hate yilin. btw. wensheng and i are in the anti-yilin club. anione interested in joining? lolz =X

News
+PRESIDENT BUSH WON! and he won Kerry by 3.5 million more votes. i'm so glad. =D
+ world famous flautist James Galway coming to singapore. ahh. i want go watch his concert. but so ex. argh.
+ Jackie Chan 's gonna do RUSH HOUR 3!! o man i'm so happy!! =D
bleh. wonder where i got all these news? duh. from newspaper la. haha.

people. i want to 'declare' once more that i have no fashion sense at all.
bleh. me telling my fren that brown goes well with yellow. or that dark green goes well with hot pink. i have NO fashion sense.
so plzz. forgive me if i give u things which are mixed up in terms of colours. lolz. and dont ask me for advice =X lolz.

Stay The Same Lyrics
by Joe Mcintyre

[Chorus]
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say,
you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself,
you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
Cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

[Verse]
I think that you could be
whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize,
all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart
and let it show you the way.

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

[Chorus]

// ahh. i DID NOT blurt his name. hmphh.

// lolz. anti yilin club. =1

// must work hard. u can de. =))

band tml. and have school open house. boo. haha.

- i love you
fifteen yrs

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

dumdeedum. back from chalet =)) VERY LONG POST ahead. =))
so if u want to skip this post. skip bahz. but u'll miss a lot. wahah. lala. =X

SYF SET PIECE:: SINGAPORE RHAPSODY
Composer :: Jacob De Hann

[2nd nov][tuesday]
lala. woke up with my body aching. hao tongg. lolz.
then sister ask me teach her maths. [serious..] coz she was having her maths exam today. bleh. p5 maths is ok. anyway i skipped all the fraction qns coz i suck in it big time. wahaha. anyway who ask her want so last minute then ask me how to do . and last nite she was still reading archie comics. booo. heyy. maths dont realli like run in our family? =X

band.
mr lim said something bout singapore arts/music school or something. and that by the time its up we would be in like JC? arghh. UNFAIRISM. -pouts-
haiz. i dont know why i'm wasting another 2 1 and a half more years in singapore juz for O levels when now i can be in Idyllwild Arts Academy boarding school now. [click on the link] arghh. coz my aunt said O levels' cert more important. haiz. too bad fer me. maybe i'll raise this topic again next year w my parents. bleh.
i saw the Opus II repetoire on da board. -wails- i dont wan play that as de 2nd piece. =( that piece juz sounds so incomplete. hmphh.

then yeh. after band went home. blah blah. got all mua stuff. then mum quickly cooked da beehoon. then its like SO MUCH. wahah. so i juz had to bring everything over to the chalet. lolz. met pris and nuanqin at bus stop. having a hard time carrying da pot. so pris help me [strong sehh. =X] and i carried her bag. lolz. then we walked to da railway tracks. haha. my first time stepping on the track itself. lolz. then yepz. saw Eka at the bus stop near the railway track. then me and nuanqin were like trying to avoid bumping into pris so that she wont overturn de beehoon. lolz. =X yepz. the bus took ages to come lor. then pris nv wear her contacts/glasses so she couldnt see anything clearly. and she mistook every single truck for a bus -.-" lolzzz.

[2nd nov+3rd nov][tues+wed][chalet+home]
then yeh. took the bus to bugis mrt. and took the mrt to pasir ris. alamak shud have taken mrt straight from yew tee . lolz. ok. nvm. dont care. =X took the bus to Downtown east. then walked into da chalet area. yepz. lolz. so happy. hugged some ppl. so excited. lolz. then entered the room . totally diaooo. lolz. ok. we HIGHLY suspected [wth -.-] that the person gave us da wrong room. hmph. lolz. okk. then a lot of ppl there lor. still got so 'qiao' from our sch de. haha. then janice brought joseph and michelle brought lewis along. tskkkk. =X hehe.
then me, pris, pearl, wenyan n nuanqin took photos now and then crazily. lolz. hmm. ren wo ao you de show. yeh. we watched then was like cursing the yilin gal now and then. LOLZ.
then bbq mahz. tried hairul's chicken. argh. its like raw. lolz. so i was like -.- and i took over from him. muahaha. then arev, shavin n daniaal tasted my chicken. and they said it was the best they had ever tasted today. muaha. i rawk. =)) i got an A2 rating. so there. thx to kingston for helping me with da fire and nuanqin for fanning. haha.then the boys went to swim then they came back saying they did a butt dance or something to the ppl who were looking up from below. [yeh its bottem-transparent pool]. sick. lolz.
then went to hit the showers at the public toliet. yeh. didnt wan to use the chalet one coz got ppl inside le. we were like so creeped out coz it was like almost 12 midnight. so we juz kept chatting while we bathed. lolz. =X

returned and pearly they all were talking bout going to da red house. supposed to be a real haunted house mahh. lolz. then 12 out of the others went lor. yeh. we were like walking in groups of four in 3 rows. yehh. yeh. so i was paired up with nicholas, daniaal and hairul. then pearly, pris, shavin n edmund. then eugene, elisha, wenyan n arev. yehh. then we all held hands. yeh. hairul's hand was like sweating [lolz] and nicholas kept squeezing mine and daniaal's hand. [LOLZ] so. yepz then they so nice let mi stand in the middle row but not middle person la. coz middle person dunno wat will 'kana' by that thing. lolz. then me and nick crapping saying like if we let go of each other's hand it will be 2.5 which means both of us will 'kana'. then at the same time both of us kept chanting John 3:16. For God so loved the world that .. blah blah .. LOLZ. yepz. then according to pearly we werent allowed to shout names or something or else the 'thing' will follow u home. aniwae had a lot of rules bahz. yeh. on the way there realised our chalet was kinda near gill's and grace's class chalet de. lolz. so reached there after walking past the beach. argh. had a really spooky atmostphere. can realli feel lor. then it was private property mahz. so if we go in we have to risk getting caught by da police. then was like. dunno why the front gate was totally lock. it wasnt lock b4 bahz. so we thot of climbing in by the back door. yeh. then arev said that since it was like so 'qiao' the front gate lock today then it must be fate or something. so yeah. so we juz left lor. yehh. kinda disappointed but yehh. God dont wan let us go in coz he knew we wont like da feeling inside. =D lolz.

so went to da beach. yeh. already 1am le. and we sat in a circle near de benches. hmm. then pearly gave out this small little wine cups. real cute. then arev bought like 3 beer bottles with beer de. lolz. yeh the alcohol one sia. lolz. then wanted to play a game . then play lor. after a while decided not to drink coz we thot not such a good idea sitting in the dark as teenagers bahz. yeh. coz if police come they'll surely think that we'r taking drugs or something. lolz. yehh. so went to de chalet again.
realised the others who didnt come with us didnt slp lor. instead they all eating mamee and oreo cookies. LOLZ. so we sat in a circle and tried drinking a small small cup of beer each to 'get used to the taste'. then played dare. lolz. blah blah. then thot a bit too sian. so arev poured out the beer in a big cup. then we passed it around. each person had to drink a gulp from it and its passed on till cannot take it le. yepz. so first out was daniaal then pearly. so was like no one else backed out le all the way to da second bottle. wahah. prosters. lolz. then yeh. the last bottle we juz realli shared among ourselves. shavin n edmund oso backed out for the last bottle le. so yeh. then arev dont wan let mi coz he must have thot of me 'small gurl' again then dont dare let mi continue. -.- lolz. okk. nvm used to it le. everyone treat me like baby [coz i still 13!! =( ] then all give way to me. lolz. muahah. lolz. =X but aniwae he still let me [and nick] continue drinking from cup but he nv gimme a lot. =)) yehh. arev is like our 2-6 father. lolz.

then dunno why some of them went out to walk walk. the arev, pris, pearly n wenyan scared something happen to them. [wahha. ya arev again. such a responsible father. lolz.]
so they asked me to stay along with the others who were sleeping coz they needed me to open the door n also that i was realli unwilling to go out le [i'm afraid of the dark]. lolz. so was like dunno wat to do. bout 3am le mahz. then derrick woke up. and see mi one person awake then pei me chit chat till bout 4am. lolz. thx worx. =)) then they finally came back le. yay. lolz. so happy to see them. then was like everyone went to lie down. and i was still like SO awake so nv lie down. then pearly n derrick pei mi again. lolz. kept taking pearly's phone to read msg and play game. LOLZ. =X
then was like. all of a sudden. i saw something small moving towards derrick. then after a while realised its was a COCKROACH!!! then quickly jumped up. then followed by derrick. then elisha n pearly screaming away. lolz. cant even remember whether i got scream anot. then woke everyone up. lolz. =X opps. haha. then the neighbours beside complained . =X bleh.
then at bout 5am bout 10 of us went to watch da sunrise. yehh. walked to da beach again. so cold. hao len. =1 then sat on da sand. so romantic worx. hehe. then got stars shining here and there. so beautiful. lolz. yeh. aniwae then red ants started to attack us like siao. so pain. so me, elisha n nuanqin went to sit on da bench. yeh. so so so cold. then eugene came then sit between me n elisha. then eugene so farnie lor. keep telling us bout MacDonald Breakfast. LOLZ. so yeah. started to get a bit tired le. so me and elisha 'tested' eugene's shoulders. wahh. so nice to lean on. lolz. =X

then yeah. sun rose. SO NICEEE. took a pic with hp. lolz. then went back chalet lor. then ended up sleeping on the floor at bout 7am. LOLZ. slept till 10am. woke up. pack bag left. lala. then went to food court ate. spaghetti for breakfast. lolz !! =X
hmm. then went home with nuanqin coz got violin lesson later in da evening and others wanted to go Escape. lala. bye bye 2-6. =(

on the mrt totally crapped with nuanqin. lolz. i was sitting underneath the 'plz give up ur seat' sign there lor. then nuanqin was like u have to give up this seat to anyone who is pregnant, the elderly and blahh. so i was like. the pai-seh type. those want to give up seat but dont know how to tell them that type. lolz. then was like on the train so little ppl. so many seats. dunno i worrying for wat. lolz. yehh. had to bring home da big pot and cd player. heavyyy. then nuanqin alighted le then left mi lor. lala.
was crossing da bridge. then one of my neighbours was like near me asking a lot of qns. then i was like yeh. answering all of them nicely though i didnt realli wan to coz i juz wanted to go home and quickly put down everything. lolz. lalala.
went home and mum was like. 0.o at the pot. lolz. lala
then went to sleep. and missed violin lessons. o noooo.

// opps. sorri. didnt know u waited that long for my sms. =1 lolz. no la. i will nv 'dont wan talk to u' . i'm not so evill. =X

// bu yao ku. =1

// yehh. thx worx.

// haha. duhh. i was like totally over the moon -wheeeee-

dumdeedum. i love this. lolz.
i want more chalets. yayy.

once more. good luck to those having O levels.
jia you worx. =)

- i love you
fifteen yrs

Monday, November 01, 2004

lala. bandd. =))

went fer band in da morning. yepz. today the Orientation Committee sec 2s took over band. yeh. so today head was jordan, phylis n catherine. n they did realli well. =D
yepz. lala. had combine for the morning. yepz. practised some pieces. then got one part mr lim said i played too cutely. -.- alamak. lolz. okkk.
then did orientation stuff. yepz. me, siying, sean, clement in same phamplet group. actually jocelyn with us then transferred to banner lorr. hmph. lolz. then yeh. had a lot a lot of ideas then excitedly shout and scream till a lot of ppl keep looking at us. LOLZ. lala.

went to KFC with band members. =) ate ate. chilli. =) lolz. then went to chingyee's house and watched Ju-on. totally freaked me out. lolz. =X then played badminton and blah blah. stayed till 7+ . lolz. then got this small little p2 boi. like challenge zhenjun to gymnastics. lolz. aniwae zhenjun could do anything that boi did including swinging on the bars. so THERE. =D -beams-

watched ren wo ao you. yilin SUX. hmph. blehhh. =X
then had conf with siying, sean , zeting, gillian, charles and rebecca . then all left one by one leaving with mi n charles n gillian. then i a bit bad lor. keep talking to gill n ppl like rebec, grace, min er and others in the background then pangseh charles then in the end he a bit tired then left. sorri worx charles. =X
aniwae. gillian and gang over at the chalet r totally nutty. toking and screaming like crazi. lolz. okk. then i told them person and that HAD to keep teasing min er. okkk. sorri. =X my bad. lolz.

// yepz. dont worri. i dont think she's angry abt u. u juz continue jia you bahz. =)

// c.h.a.l.e.t =))

// sorriiii. didnt know u wanted mi to sms you. sorri. =(

yepz. tml gonna be at a chalet fer one nite. like no chalet 'atmostphere' sia. lolz. o well. =)

- i love you
fifteen yrs

Sunday, October 31, 2004

sunday. happy halloween. =)
updated my wishlist and november calender. yepz. check it out bahz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOCELYN!! =D
yepz. my dear band fren. haha. yucong going to celebrate bday with u riteee. lolz =X

conference with charles and sean on da phone late last nite. yeh. bout some stuff. haiz. try not to worri bout it so much bahz. i'm sure it will turn out fine. as long as all of us try hard enough. nothing is impossible. yepz. after all. sec 2 band members ROX. haha. and dont give up worx. yeahh. =))
then conference with charles, sean, siying, laypeng n eileen. yepz. eileen studying S.S worx. jia you. =) lolz.

woke up at 7am then go jurong for da violin 'semi-finals'/'finals audition' thingy. haiz. i screwed it all up bigtime. thought will only have like.. 1 or 2 judges oni lor. turned out got 4. then all stare at us the trio till eyes pop out. lolz. aniwae was so nervous that my hand kept shaking and my bow ended up bouncing OFF the strings. ahh. die le cannot get into finals. =( haiz. nvm bahz. if realli cannot get in oso good thing. coz then can concentrate more on Opus. =) yay.

wanted to practice clar. then so =( when i found out its not with mi. haiz. wanted to practice folk song suite very very badly. hmphh. yeh. so tired and took a nap from 2 to 6. lolz. yepzz. woke up and realised that for composition in music theory ytd i nv end the piece with a tonic note. shittt. 5 marks? 10 marks gone?? >.<> quickly finish studying music terms and music history b4 december
-> start practicing for LCM music exam in december
-> practice clar a lot for opus
-> start on violin n piano exam pieces
-> finish up school holiday homework quickly
-> practice for violin competition . IF i get into da finals. lolz.

shall not blog up anymore songs if i cant think of any. lolz. k. if not everyday must rack my brains juz for one song de lyrics. lolz.how ah. i'm crazi over Jiang Nan. so nice.
and i juz read a news article and i am so so mad. hmph. we'll show them. arghh. arrogant freaks.

My Greatest Love Is You

Every new day
Your glory unfolds
Filling my eyes
With Your treasures untold
The beauty of Holiness
Brings worship anew
My greatest love is You

Call me deeper
Into Your grace
The river that flows
From the Holy Place
Wash over me
Cleansing me through
My greatest love is You

// happy halloween timothy. lolz.

// tomorrow. =))

good luck to all those taking O levels tomorrow!! =D
jia you!!! =D

- i love you
fifteen yrs