/and my heart BEATS again ;

Saturday, January 22, 2005
WA1 RAWKS. =D

Do u know the feeling when like.
You see something on the net.
Your jaw literally drops.
You talk on the phone.
You go back to bed.
You toss and turn and still cannot sleep.
All because u felt that someone lied to you.
Do u?
Then finally it clears up.
And actually you just misunderstood everything.
Do u know know how terrible it feels?
nevermind. haiz. =1

met cindy fer shepherding. so qiao met jolene n grace. lolz. met the boys section of da west zone. yeah. omg. i love their ties. looked realli cool. haha.
at jurong east mrt station. i MALU-ED myself big time. i was standing rite infront of the rest and the door just CLOSED not allowing us in. i gasped and shouted -something- and GRABBED someone's arm trying to hold that person back coz he was attempting to make a mad dash in. and when i looked, it was some indian 30 year old guy staring at me. OMG. then he kept laughing then he went to tell his frens bout me. then his frens kept looking at me n laughing. i was like staring at my shoes. lolz. =x

yeah. went fer prayer meet at church. after that went to look for joanne they all. ya. then went for 'Emotional' special service.
starting off like no atmostphere. LOLZ. then was like until the middle part everything gets so so much better. -cheers- haa. i lurve today's PnW and Sermon. totally rawked my socks. yeah.

when we were singing 'Voice Of Hope' near the end of da sermon, flashes of people's faces just ran through my mind. somehow. and o-my-goodness. it was just not 'people'. it was every single person i knew. every single one of them. even gillian grace n rebecca. LOLZ. and all of them were smiling at me. =\ weird.ya. then had an urge to just pray for everyone. i dont know why but all of a sudden i seemed to have all the time in the world to pray for them. and so i did. prayed for everyone, one by one, individually, as their faces just flashed pass. =)
muahas. i'm pretty proud of myself. i dont usually pray a lot for other ppl esp those whom i dont realli know. -grins-
btw. i realli realli await that day which i will bring a new believer down the aisle to the front all by myself. =) [errm. sounds like a wedding thing rite. but its not k. haha.]
and one of my aims for this year is that i wanna become a shepherd to someone! -hops around excitedly- cindy said if u'r a shepherd u can attend some Seed meeting i think. ooo. i realli realli wanna go!!! =D bahhs. i shall go invite ppl to church!! weeee. wan them to be saved =)) targetting at sec 1s regenites. muahhha. xD
went to starhub to eat with CG. haa. then went home with juliet and slept on the mrt. lolz. =D

went to eat dinner with nicholas n afiqah at mac. ooo. we had an awesome time lor. haha. talk bout old times and this and that. lolz. afiqah has the taufik batisah cd. i am SOOOO jealous. HMPH. blehx. lala. i invited nicholas to church next week! yeah. dunno whether he can anot. lolz.
faeliq's brother also has the taufik cd. ahh. i'm SUPER jealous. argh.

i realli hate it when u always sms mi n ask mi about my subject combinations and how much i got for this and that. and even how much i got for music theory or practical. its like. what the hell lor. u wan to compare with mi ah. i dont give a damn if you'r better than me in maths or music or wateva lor. i'm not as proud as u wat. arghh. nvm.

// ya. i didnt mean to misunderstand it all. =\

// yay. WA1 RAWKS!!!!

// must bring visitors!! =D

muaha. cant wait for next week!! -hops around-

- i love you
fifteen yrs

Friday, January 21, 2005
boring dayyy. grrrr.

rahhs. what a boring day.

woke up at like 2pm. lolz.
practiced music instruments for the whole afternoon.
shud realli be doing homework. esp since there's like one whole pile of it. but ahhs. laziness. lolz.
ate dinner n the egg tastes funny. =p
then watch tv.
then here am i infront of da computer.
o gosh. this is why i hate holidays. grrrr.

o ya. btw. i just realised that my ears are damn sensitive. and i'm dead serious bout that. was listening to a recording by some band and their intonation. was. o-holy-bananas. and then i got a headache. sheez. seems like all da intonation listening mr lim made us do is realli quite effective. i will not listen to anymore recordings with horrible intonations. argh. or my head will burst.

// lala. boredddd.

o well. tml go church le. got special service. -claps-

- i love you
fifteen yrs

Thursday, January 20, 2005
maths test. raaahx.

no school tml. can wake up late. YAY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANSEL!!
xD hanselll. good luck wif ur sec 1 life! =))

ms cheong is OUT of regent from next week onwards. posted to angelican high i think. o man. the sec 4 boys infront were realli cheering. xD lolz.
maths test was ok. didnt get to finish the last qn which was worth 4 out of 20 marks. and i did everything in decimals. while everyone else did it in fractions. gees. so am i rite or wrong. argh. so dead.
mr kamar said my sketching was good so now DnT is the love of my life. -smirks- booya. ha.
chem teacher didnt turn up. in fact all da science teachers kana mc on da days which they have to teach us. hmm. what did 3/7 do. -??- and this relief teacher came. the bian tai one as told by michelle. yucks. and he asked mi n siti a lot of stoooopid kpo qns. lolz. played 'hangman' with elaine n siti. lame version. ha.
ahh. yes. lotsa teachers angry at our class today. haiyooh.
~~i didnt realli mean to shoot back or watever. but if u want to show off then dont try me. i wont go "wahhh" like other ppl would. so give it up.~~

band's attendence was almost horrendous. turned out most of them were either sick or had mock exam. alamak. lolz. sight readed Phantom Of The Opera today. quite hard. gr 5 or 6 de. yeah. gonna work on that piece. yeps. have a few solos on da Eb clar with de piccolo. yeah. cool.
singing was realli fun. realli. =D
next tuesday SYF rehearsal. and sec 1s getting their allocated instruments. so fast. lolz.
clarinet section were de FIRST to fall in. o boy. the Exco team was realli surprised. lolz. xD

afiqah has da taufik debut album. HMPH.
-throws her a jealous dirty look-
haaa.
tmr supposed to meet cindy fer shepherding but cancelled le. hmm. wonder what can i do tomorrow. boo. lolz.

// i wished so. but it will never happen. =/

// phantom of the operaaaa. xD

ahh. chem test in a few days. think will fail le la. boo.byeees. =)

If someone hurts or betrays you,
forgive them for they have let you learn how to be cautious in whom you put your trust in.
And if someone loves and respects you,
love and respect them back in return unconditionally because they have taught you how to love and to open your heart.

- i love you
fifteen yrs

Wednesday, January 19, 2005
nicholas's bag rawk. =x

weee. i have NICHOLAS'S BAG. -spins-

oo. exchanged bags with nicholas fer a week. his bag is so much cooler than mine. ha. xD and he's stuck with my black one. lolz.
band seniors gonna write letters n wateva to sec 1 band members. ha. and we'll be like their imaginary angel. haa. i got mine. but i wont tell u who. xD lalala. charles n zhenjun got two. how unfair. -whines-
ms chong made us all go buy PSE book in da middle of class. what a grave mistake. some boys buying food lor. ha.
and i dont understand POA. argh. dont realli like accounting that much already. sheez.
~~think i was pretty mean today in sch. but. dont expect mi to stop walking n wait for anyone who thinks he/she is damn important to me. like no lor?~~
derrick automatically gave me $21 for da locker money today w/o me asking. -gasps- woahh. ok. thot he would forget. haha. xD
oo. zhenjun n others gonna try out for SYWO. maybe. and they ask mi join them too. sheez. dunno la. boo.

p6 kids are very well versed with da F word. very indeed. was invited into a p6 msn conv thx to my sister's frens. all of them. yeah. keep F here and there. kinda surprised. lolz.

violin lesson was kinda fun. i rmb-ed to bring down my gr6 book. amazing huh. lolz. weeee. i just found out that my strengths are de running notes on 1st n 3rd position. wootx. aint that cool. weakness shud be high high notes de intonation bahs. yeah. went through Allegro today. so happy man. haha. yeah. and i can tell u i improved a lot on Allegro. thx to Kayser, da boring stuff. lolz. yeps. realli. even if u do all da boring stuff u will seriously get results in the end . yay =D
saw grace on my way home. lolz. =D

o yeah. was like typing. felt something looking at mi. looked up and saw a big lizard staring at mi. and i scream la. lolz. lala. then mummy came in to shoo it away. lolz. xD

// everything's changed.

// learn to fly. =)

ahh. maths test tmr. jia you. no more F9s. hope i get at least a B4 or higher? jia you me!

- i love you
fifteen yrs

Tuesday, January 18, 2005
new sec 1s. =D

rahhx. weee. no homework. -grins-

brought 2 clarinets, suitcover with stuff, boots and textbooks in my hand with my bag. heavy. boo. jocelyn forget da band stuff so she went up to get it. ha.
pointed out to teacher that her Chem lesson was too fast. glad i did. =)
and today i witness a fight in class after sch between 2 guys. argh. telling u. our class boys are not nice to be trifled with. fight till damn violent. punch here kick there coz of small small thing. sheez. then no one stopped them. haiyoh.
locker ppl coming down tmr to collect locker money tmr. ah. yes. i confirm sharing locker with derrick le. yups.

went to meet ms beh with elaine n siti after sch. asked math qns. oo. the textbook has wrong answers. -scowls- so i'm right. thx to elaine n siti for guilding mi mahs. haha. -grins- i'm starting to like maths. haha.
band. we have 37 sec 1s. -gasps- ha. bet the final headcount of da sec 1s at the end of this year will probably be 25. just like us, da sec 3 batch. hur. =1
sec 1s were trying out instruments. saw felicia. yay. and to think she told me she dun wan join. lolz. so cute. waved at me. ha. and she got an 'A' for clarinet. -beams- 'performed' to sec 1s. then blah blah. filmed down our SYF marching thing today. was fun. lolz.
got new sec 2 boi join da band named Qin Yuan [i think]. chinese damn power de. [from china?]. used to be from Henderson Band - saxophone. thot was anderson. and i was like 'do u know gillian?' . and he was '?HUH?' lolz. now our band got one more alto sax le. yay so happy. =D sax section got hope le. wont 'dao bi'. ha. he looks just like da sax tutor, jonathan. lolz. and his playing. not bad fer a sec 2. -nods- bet ain's realli glad she has a batch mate in her section le coz. lolz. feel like he's gonna take over ben after he graduates for da baritone sax. but. ahhs. dunno la. i'm not sax de. lolz. and the other sec 2s -stares at ruyu n gang- were pretty nice. lolz. think they asked him whether wan join them draw da design for sec 2 t shirt anot. LOLZ. aiyoh. later scare him off how. ha.
and the ex-bassoon-ist is back after dunno how long. finally. =D -claps for Carrine!-
oo. people -stares at ruyu and gang AGAIN- are thinking bout going for da SYWO auditions. yes ppl. ITS OUT. so fast. tsk. thot april. sheez.
walked home with jocelyn and natasha n qin yuan. lolz. so fun sia. xD haa.
btw. we didnt even wear our boots or band t and wateva. shudnt have brought it. argh.

// quite happy bahs. lolz.

// nonoo. dont havveee. =(

// hmph. donch wannn. =/

ahh. maths class test this thur. grrr. hmph. aiming for at least a B. from my usual F. ha. jiayou me. =D

- i love you
fifteen yrs

Monday, January 17, 2005
stressful life??

ok . have oni 10 mins to blog. busy me gotta do homework. =x

ya. school was ok. PE totally rawks. am so looking forward to the next PE session. was suppose to run around the school block 15 times today in 15 minutes. was bout 4km. and i oni managed 12 in 15 minutes. sob. must jiayou le. ya.
finally finished my DnT artefact. so proud of myself. =)
and getting used to da chairperson post. so yeah. yay.
yucks. didnt know there was ever such a disgusting n shameless guy in our level. heard bout what he said/did to that gurl. feel like smacking him rite in the face. fancy a guy doing such a thing. totally no pride to lay down at all. i dont even think he's a guy. like what the hell lor. nv think bout the gurl. then just burst liddat. thank goodness he's the only one. i hope.

music at ACS [I] was stressful. had music history in the first period. did Bach and Handel today. yeah. all da german n wateva. woahh. had to listen to 'Hallelujah Chorus'. lurve it. haha. doing melody writing n score reading next week. cant wait. ha.
went to ACS de canteen during break. it has AIR CON lor. grr. i'm so jealous. and their food rox. i love their chicken pie. xD
2nd period. slept through this video on chinese instruments. cant realli watch a dizi or guzheng playing for 10 minutes on tape. grr. did triads today. didnt understand a thing. got harmony homework sia. haiyyoh. working on chinese opera[s] next week. dont like the sound of it. hmph.
o yeah. ACS aint that big after all. just that they'r rich enuff for full air con ventilated around the whole school. but SJI's canteen and track field beat them le. ha.

went to popular to get some dividers. saw jalene. went home. went fer piano lessons. got uncle kelvin to teach mi those triads thing. yeah. thats bout it. gotta do homework. got a lot a lot. 9 of them in fact. so . byess. =D ... btw. if u find me too busy fer u nowadays. i'm realli sorri worx. yeps. just leave mi a sms or something. i promise u i'll get back wif u. =)

// show.me.your.way =)

// i will not give up on music.

ahhs. stress. haha. lala. nvm. just pray to Jesus and he will help mi! yeah! =D

- i love you
fifteen yrs

Sunday, January 16, 2005
simple n sparkling new me.

muahaa. from today onwards i'm going to live a simple, and pure sparkling life. and blog just like that too. hur.
and will do something bout this new layout. nid to add all my links and this n that. later. if i have the time after doing my homework.

went to church. lunch at Mac's. had da prosperity meal thing. one word. YUCKS. i dont mind the fries that much though. its just the beef and raw onions. like. ewww. argh.
took the bus with arev n wenyan to boon lay mrt. saw mr nonis jogging. -stares- . then took da mrt home.
at nite. music lessons. wasnt bad. my teacher's fren invited him to join him for performance. and teacher invited mi to join them. cool. think i'll participate. yeah.

// simple. and clean.

// plain simplicity just made my life a whole lot more interesting.

simple n clean bloggin' rite? ahh. i love myself. =)
i shall do this everyday.

- i love you
fifteen yrs