Friday, April 15, 2005
going for chalet. (:
going for chalet today. tmr. and day after. lala.
oo. wan to thank Jared loads for chatting with me late at night ytd coz faeliq was asleep and gillian had competition today.
yups.
thx for talking to me bout so much stuff. somehow feel much better. though i'm sure u dont know what i'm talking about. LOL. jareeed. sorri. i cant say it in that style again. lol.
bye.
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Thursday, April 14, 2005
tong hua?
sticky me. LOL.
i'm awfully proud of my candle holder design. (:
got a 9.5/25 for my POA test so got to retest. seriously, i dont care. LOL. okayy. but got posted over to ms merduati's class for split class so have to part with siti and elaine. aww. o wells. baohui is delighted that there's finally someone whom she knows in her class. which is. duh. ME. xD
watched that movie again fer cme! YAY.
why are my class boys getting obsessed with this song called tong hua?
got elaine hooked on ALVAMAR OVERTURE. :D
i'm lazy to do homework. holiday mood.
// lazyyyy.
may i fail my mid years. (:
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
bedok north.. GOLD!!
bedok north got gold! details. (:
half day today. physics test was such a FLOP. CONFIRM FAIL. maths lesson was quite bad. i cant believe i dont understand bout similar triangles. sigh.
JIA YOU REGENT MOVEMENT AND DANCE FOR SYF!!
supposed to go for sports day. just to watch ppl run races? i think its a waste of time. went with aaron, charles, stephanie, yvonne, yokelian, zeting, jordan and esther to conference hall hoping to hear bedok north for THEIR syf. ha. i'm the class chairperson and i'm ponning sports day when i'm supposed to be taking attedence. wow. i'm dead. weee.
sometimes she's hot
sometimes i'm cold
sometimes my head wants to explode*
reached there when bedok north had just FINISHED playing. wah. we so fasttt rite. hurhur. lolz. then they went in. lala. we stayed outside. hua yi, RI, TKGS, st anthony's and loads of schools were there bahs. yep. ACS [I] was there too! lol. lala. they let us in fer the results. weee.
was sitting with shuyi. wait wait. shuyi so cute la can? keep saying she was nervous with some other ppl. cheryl too. so cuteee. then the whole clarinet section was like holding hands. oo. and i was holding with them. LOL. okkk.
"... bedok north secondary school. band number 71... GOLD!! " -SCREAMS-
and yeps. UPROAR. :D
shuyi wont stop asking everyone "DID WE REALLY GET GOLD?" and i couldnt stop going "YES!!!"
hug here and there with so many ppl. poor khairul. all of a sudden i hug him out of excitement n he kana shocked. LOL.
RI's shouts and cheers of joy werent as "loud and happy" as st andrews' when they got gold with honours. why? dunno la. but i love their blazers. (:
joel yong is getting me a green [slytherin] blazer for my bday if he's in singapore. YAY. -cheers
went home and slept. woken up by dad. got violin lesson ahh!! omg omg. rush. and today was one of my best lessons. i played so well till my fingers hurt like God knows. vibrato was well on. white tags are dropping off. HALLELUJAH. (:
dad forgot to bring me school uniform shopping. boo.
suyin. on why orchid park jumped from cop to gold with honours.
[[ŠũŶıŇ..]] a tingling senzation.. says:
cuz their choice piece was a orchestra turned band piece
[[ŠũŶıŇ..]] a tingling senzation.. says:
and it's very hot in japan
[[ŠũŶıŇ..]] a tingling senzation.. says:
so those idiotic japanese judges were lyk "waaaaaaaaaa"
[[ŠũŶıŇ..]] a tingling senzation.. says:
cuz the piece's fm japan
faeliq. on judges of syf 2005.
competition is useless.
it judges ppl of how they play.
they dont care how much you work.
they dont care how hard you work.
they dont care how much you sacrifice.
all they want is the product.
nothing but the product.
music comes from the heart.
not from technical studies.
not from method books.
not from experienced tutors.
music is purely what you feel.
music is just a wayof passing a message to the audience.
a message from the heart of the composer.
a message from the heart of the conductor.
a message from the heart of the player.
thus music cannot be judged.
the way you play it.
is the way you want to show the audiencehow or what you feel.
me. on syf 2005 overall.
SCREW SYF LA.
hmmmm.
chem test tmr. POA test. o wow. i'm not CARING bout anything. shit. still in band mood. i wake up thinking "today got band anot?" . die ah. mid year die le.
weizhi told me i got ZERO for harmony test. expected. stupid A sharps! and i missed my music history test. means. THATS IT. my mid year is a F9. my overall gonna be pulled down like siao le. haiz. ):
my table in a mess.
i dont give a damn.
ST MARGARETS' GOT A GOLD!!!
THEY DID IT!!!
was talking bout st marg's band hoping to get a gold with other regent bandmates. and they want st marg's to get a gold too! ((:
today's post has been VERY long. lol.
// good job bedok north & st margarets!
// i want a blazer! LOL.
byee. i shall die tmr. (:
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
SILVERRR.
and. SILVER. ho-humms.
details!!
i was not even nervous today. not even when i was on stage. believe it or not. LOL.
reached conference hall. tuning room. lala. then waited outside. st andrews' band was right beside us with whitley sec on our left. and sas's boys all looked damn matured. not that ours arent. but. yeah. u get the idea. and they were all praying before they went in. i'm impressed. found this kinda sweet. for some reason. and i went to pray too. 6 times actually. haha. xD
our turn. went in. played. was definitely not our best performance. but neither was it de worse. thats all i can say. came out and all mr lim said was "HIGH COP". took photos and so. yeps.
went back to school. felt asleep at da front. sorri i didnt go to da back of da bus to create "trouble" for everyone. LOL.
natasha's dad sent me, hayati, natasha and jocelyn back to conference hall. went in. waited for results. wait wait wait. then this damn farnie man came out and kept making us laugh like crazi. haha. then results. that was the one and oni time i was nervous and i was squeezing shulin's hand. haha.
"...st andrew's secondary school... band number ??.. GOLD WITH HONOURS!! " . and their guys jumped up and hugged and blah.
"...regent secondary school... band number ??.. SIL--- I SCREAM --- VER." o well. my reflexes are very very good for once. i was the first to scream u know. LOL. and yoke lian cried. erm.
"...whitley secondary school... band number ??.. SILVER!!! -screamssss-" GOOD JOB WHITLEY (:
i realised all the bands who played american riversongs all got silver. CHIJ SJC and monfort too. how strange. heard that da judges oni like loud and melodious music [and bands which are big]. isnt american riversongs LOUD enuff. ok tts not the point. haha.
didnt feel anything. not happy not sad. so neutral. i would have felt bad if we got a gold coz we didnt try out best. i would have felt bad TOO if we got a COP coz we didnt realli NOT do our best. ok what am i saying.
some compassvale guy approached jiahui and told her he thot regent's american riversongs was awesome. thx so much. (:
mr tan said we would have gotten that gold if our band wasnt so small and compared to other big bands. how inferior should regent feel? spastic. -rolls eyes
tried to get out of conference hall. ended up shaking hands with loads of st andrew's boys saying "congrats for getting gold with honours". and there was an awfully friendly malay guy who asked bout regent. haha. ain [sec4] and hayati said he was cute. LOL. okk. he is. for a malay gurl that is. haha =x
the sec 2s are so cute. they cant get over the fact that we didnt get a gold. o wells. nvm nvm. our band oni 2nd time SYF. oni 4 years old. will still have time de. haha.
qi hui:: i want goldd. ):
seniors:: i bring u go buy gold wan? haha =x
ate at some place near conference hall with like almost da whole band. sat with jiahui, chingyee, yaqing and minfang. haha. we rawk. kept talking. lol. didnt realli eat la. the noodles kinda sucked.
went back to yew tee. met eugene [alumni]. he said he was realli proud of us. and i felt so much better. lol. somehow feel mr lim realli isnt happy with our performance. ate at yew tee! weee. haha.
// silverrr. (:
bedok north tmr. JIA YOU! lol. i have this big feeling they will get gold. (:
o yes. and regent dance SYF tmr! JIA YOU TOO! get that GOLD WITH HONOURS!!
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Monday, April 11, 2005
SYF TOMORROW!!
because u made me believe in myself*
o alright. i just told mr lim to read mine, benjamin's and jiahui's blog. by today. dunno whether he will. hope he does though. (:
woke up feeling nervous. though syf is like tomorrow. "i'm nervous" was going on inside me and i was staring at my shoes full time, almost crashing into numerous ppl. and jordan just had to come up to me and tell me "rebecca, guess what? tmr SYF le." wah. like thx a lot laaa. hur. nuan qin tried to calm me down. thx.
couldnt concentrate in class. its not my fault. (:
history cher didnt come. make me rush my Russia essay. evil. poor afiqah and siti were listening to me go on and on bout SYF and i think desperately trying to calm me down in the library? o wells. got over it for a while coz i got hooked onto a Titanic book with afiqah. ha.
didnt get to do our 2.4km test today for PE. thx to some unclear instructions. tsk. so did practices for sit and reach and pull-ups. i did oni 10 la. omg. like so little. tsk. boo.
Dnt was fun. did drawing and so. haozhi helped me loads. thx. haha. mr kamar locked the door in case any of us tried to creep out coz he wanted to retain us till 3pm. argh. finished all 4 designs and was allowed off so rush to band.
didnt went to o level music lessons. and there's a music history test today. o well. who cares. syf more impt. i rather wind up with a big fat F9 on my report card. LOL.
band. ran through once. once oni. then had warm ups and so. thats all. tomorrow is the day. i got to talk to the band with joseph, charles and minfang. (: though i was shaking a bit. like going to cry. BOO.
mr lim said if i was scared what will happen if i become the band major. like a army cant have a scared sergeant. ok it makes sense. LOL. but i always end up not getting nervous at all on the ACTUAL syf/concert day. so yeah. i rather be nervous now. :D
heard 6 bands got silver and 4 bands got gold with honours today. others gold or bronze or COP. woah. lol.
Dear Heavenly Father,
we have worked so hard for the past few months just to bring out this american riversongs for this SYF. all this hardwork just for a mere 10 minutes. We know you didnt send St Andrews' infront of us to show us "look, u all wont be able to do it", but yet instead "hey. its just another sec sch band. so what if they'r a gold band. u play your music."
now it realli doesnt matter to us whether we get a Gold with honours, Gold, Silver, Bronze or even yes. a COP. high or low. all we know is that tomorrow is our one and oni chance we have.
you didnt just send mr lim into this world to become a conducter. but yet a conducter of the regent band this SYF`2005. we know he has done his very best to bring out the music in us, and tomorrow, everything depends on us alone.
Help us Lord, to overcome this stretch of fear which we have buried deep in our hearts. To block out any trace of fear and nervousness, to play proudly, and to play our very very best.
All this in every single one of us.
We trust in you, Lord. Yes we do.
In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.
We Should . We Must . We Can . We Will
i'm feeling nervous again. sigh. mom is trying to calm me down with fish. o wow. -.-"
I really want to play my solo well tmr. i know i can do it. i knowww.or else mr lim will probably skin me alive. i think. will he?
our band not allowed to stay for results. why? sob. i'm upset le la.
// jia you tmr. (:
// one chance. 100%.
10pm. gonna chase band members go sleep. byes.
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Sunday, April 10, 2005
we love mr lim!!!
saw wat jiahui posted. i oso wan!!!! ok. here goes.
i wanna say a BIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG THANKS to mr lim. (:
yups, to u. haha.
thx forrrrr. [this will be VERY long]
being so patient with da band since like dunno how long. taking time to make sure that our band play quavers and everything well even if its just for some stupid 1 bar which we screw up coz we'r so blardy nervous and for finding so many tutors for us that when i told my frens that li xin taught our clarinet section b4 THEY DONT BELIEVE. aww. lala. and thx for ALMA we cudnt have survived w/o her. sob. and u always say wat. HIGH COP HIGH COP when actually we know very well actually u wan us to get better than a COP but u just dont want to say but thx for that coz even though we got silver for da last syf history might not repeat itself u get my gist? so even if we REALLY get COP like u said coz we are trapped in da middle of gold bands we wont care. coz so wat if we got a COP. its just a cert which tells u how much u did in dat damn 10 minutes and nothing else. i rather get a COP than NOT improve in da band. and now i bet eveyrone in band is so used to u saying "HIGH COP" that if we get COP we would think it is so normal. yay. and for u knowing how to use msn coz some other conducters dont even know how to go online and thx for putting so much time into our band and bedok north band coz we know u also must go schooling at NUS and surely got hard time balancing ur schedule coz i dont see u using a palmtop -.-" i think u nid one realli. and and. thx for saying that if we dont get to go overseas this year we must have OPUS coz it just makes us feel better i dont know why. and thx coz i realised a lot of band conducters know who regent band is and its conducter. weeee. and thx for telling me to play out coz if not by not i still dont dare to play out and dunno what i doing oso. O. thx for buying Eb clarinet coz i know many schools dont have and so i feel i like so special sia. (: haha. so thick skinned of me. and thx for telling me to stop talking during combine when i was in sec 1 coz if not i think i will be talking more than u in combine now and now siying talks more than me now so i'm innocent. WAHAH. ooo. and thx for trusting my batch of ppl so much like u said b4 that " i oni trust the sec 2s [last year] ". ok i'm evil. haha. thx for pulling up our band morale and relaxing us during concerts by smiling and saying some stuff which i cannot hear but i'm already reassured that everything will be fine when we are so blardy nervous and shaking like a leaf coz it realli helps and makes us determined to play better and give u face though u dont seem like da type who nids face coz every exchange u will purposely make us breakdown so that we will watch u everytime u conduct. thx for giving us so many exchanges coz my frens said that hardly have exchanges at the most like once every 2 years or so. thx for being a horn tutor if not our horn section have no tutor now. ok tts stupid of me. thx for telling me when i was in sec 1 "rebecca i can see a pile of dust on your head" when i didnt dare to try to play with the main band coz if not now i'll still be stoning. thx for telling me this and that bout conducting or else now i still will anyhow stop da band just like that without counting. thx for being so happy at times coz it makes the whole band feel happy and everyone will feel happy and everything will go da opposite when u'r angry so u'r like our mood-changer but sometimes we realli know its our fault coz we nv put in enuff effort of just that bar which we assume is nothing but actually is everything. thx for making us learn how to play scales, all major and minor all 36 of them plus arpeggios and chromatic scales and giving us band tests and everything coz i know that some other bands hardly know even 10 scales and yet u pressurize us to learn like 36 scales and yet we complain but still must go through da tests and i always see that under my remarks its always "disappointing attempt" and then i feel like i didnt give my best which i didnt. sob. thx for teaching us how to listen for intonation problems and da ear test intervals thing coz that saved me in my music exam which asked me to listen to chords and guess da intervals and i just thot back of wat u taught me b4. thx for telling me to stop being so evil and posting things at ppl's forum or else now i still would have thot james swearingen was the composer of sinfornia but thats not the point i know. silly me. thx for buying us so many scores from overseas and locally and us sec 3s still rmb that u owe us "sesame street" since sec 1 so rmb that kkies coz i have good memory and wont forget that. haha. thx for knowing how to sms coz some conducters has nv even seen a phone in their lives though its not their fault. thx for having so many friends who come and watch us rehearse and we feel so blessed for some reason. thx for bringing us overseas to perform coz we have gained loads of experiences and did i mention it was FUN. haha. thx for taking time of to teach saxophone kexin how to play her solo part de rhythm and now benjamin is so touch he practically loves u and now keeps going "where's mr lim? where's mr lim?" which is indeed irritating i must say. thx for using such chim english dunno whether izzit u tauting us or something LOL coz we just learn something new everyday. haha. thx for bringing out the music in the band and making us feel so proud that we'r in something called REGENT WIND SYMPHONY that we'll probably tell the whole world if we could coz we'r proud of it. thx for visiting blogs coz some other conducters wont bother tts how evil they are. thx for being just like the big father u are to the band. nicky shouted " we love u daddy " ! haha. thx for taking so much time to prepare us for this syf and now we know that we've improved and whether we get a COP, bronze, silver, gold or DIAMOND we will STILL celebrate. thx for letting benny motivate us with that 100% thingy that all of us still rmbs. hur. thx for buying so many cds for our band which i'm sure not a lot of bands have a audio visual department for borrowing cds and stuff. thx for thinking that i know everything but actually its not true coz i just circulate everything back from u and i just infer and stuff. yeps. still have loads to say but think this is too long. in conclusion. just thx mr lim (:
because u made me [and da band] believe in ourselves.
thank u God for bringing Mr Lim into regent's band life. :D
- i love you
fifteen yrs
good luck sjimb tmr!! (:
2 more days to SYF`05!!
mom woke me up at like 10am and told me my computer was still on. damn it. i dont know how i ended up on my bed again. nv off computer somemore. diao.
watched tv to pass my time in da afternoon coz it was too freaking boring and i was lazy to do homework. hurhur.
something happened on msn, sms and phone. he's not quitting SYF. wahaha. yays. told u he wasnt that type. and to think ppl like tim chua and gillian all worrying so much. LOL. i'm glad its finally over. :D
lessons were better today. (:
dad bought for me da tuner-cum-metronome!! so darn happy!! haha. a bit like my band's black tuner and white metronome. oni combined together and it has much much more functions and its like cream colour. woohoo. ((:
ate at pastamania. yucks. i prefer pizza hut. oni ate like a bit. lol. was too ermmm. LOL.
changing my name. waiting for mom to come back to confirm and go dunnoe what procedure. ma fan de. with lawyer and blah. not telling now. xD haha.
tmr. SJIMB syf at 11:45am. good luck to them!! JIA YOU!!
now my mindset is like. " mr lim has done so much for us that even if we play our very very best and get a COP, i'll accept it with no regrets. " something is wrong with me? nope. i dont wan any award or medal. coz i dont care anymore. (:
still i cant deny the fact that its possible for us to get a gold. but its oso possible for us to get COP. so wats the point of da medals? nothing but just 10 minutes worth of playing. (:
the four ppl we meet in life.
+ yourself
+ the one u love
..the person who u like a lot. but yet the person does not like u.
+ the one who loves u
..the person who likes u a lot. yet u do not like him.
+ the one who is gonna spend his life with u
..the person whom u can truly spend a lifetime with.
// tuner cum metronome!!
history essay. ahh. byes.
- i love you
fifteen yrs