Saturday, March 05, 2005
a boy named steven.
this is a true story. told by da pastor today during easter service. yeps.
there was this 9 year old boi named steven. he was a mentally retarded kid whose condition just worsened daily. attending a church weekly, he was in a class of 8. and the teacher wud try not to let the children laugh at steven just becuase he said the wrong things occasionally.
during easter, the teacher gave all 8 of them each an empty plastic egg and told them to fill it up with what they thought was 'life' and to bring it back the following week. and so the children did.
the next week, the teacher placed all the eggs on her table.
she opened the first egg. it was a flower. the teacher nodded her head, "yes yes. a flower. it represents life." a girl excitedly stood up and exclaimed. " thats mine!! its mine!! "
she opened the second egg. it was a stone. the teacher thot it was steven's, and quickly moved on to the next egg. a boy stood up and shouted. " thats my egg!! there's moss on the stone!! the moss represents life!! " . teacher " ahhh. yes yes. "
she opened the third egg. a butterfly flew out. the teacher stared. a girl stood up and proudly said " thats mine !! =D "
she opened the fourth egg. there was nothing inside. knowing that it was steven's egg, she quickly moved on to the next egg.
steven stood up and raised his hand. " teacher.. will u explain my egg?? "
and the teacher replied " but steven.. there's nothing in this egg."
steven said " the emptiness represents the empty tomb after jesus rose from the dead after he died for us. "
the teacher said nothing.
a few weeks later, steven's condition worsen. and he passed away.
during his funeral, the 7 children in his class came, and in steven's casket, were the childrens' empty eggs.
doesnt it just amaze u, how a mentally retarded kid like steven, could actually help his 7 other classmates learn about what life was about?
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Eb aint always lucky. =\
this week is holy week. (:
went fer band. had sectionals then combine. my E refused to come out during washington post when its actually kinda simple lor. bleh. i cant tongue. like since sec1. argh. lala. and mr lim kept 'tekan-ing' me. he says i'm underplaying and so must 'gai guo zi xing'. gosh. and to think i always thot i was overplaying. hurhur. siying says its coz mr gloss [i think?] said " she shud push more air " that time. wth. =\ cat says i sound much brighter if i play loud. okk. so i shud trust mr lim then. lolz. those who thinks that Eb clar is super easy to play shud realli go jump down the building. bleh. better work on this tomorrow. hur. and i'm not gonna give mr lim a chance to slaughter me on tuesday. =x
mr lim called me a 'jia kan tang'. how mean. like wat the hell is that aniwae. yokelian says it means i know nuts bout chinese. ok that is very mean of mr lim. =(
nicholas/nicky [that sec 1 horn player] came to band! like he's the oni sec 1 among the seniors but hey. he came okk. haha. think mr lim gave him a bit private lessons or something. dunno. haha. nicky looks like mr lim! realli. i mean other than the eyes. lolz.
was on my way to church. at somerset mrt. omg. like one whole bunch of sji and scgs and rgs students doing cip flag day la. so its like wherever i walk then... yeah. then there was this point where all 8 sji boys were like standing in a row like 400m away. i was like. tian arh. haha. went to church. our caregroup's sitting at like the third row. which is super near can. my eyes were like bulging. haha. pst ben preached today! how cool. lolz. went to starhub later and gave huiling, grace n cindy their prezzies. then prepared huiling's 'cake'. like wth lolz. it was actually french bread [the longgg one] with yong tau foo ingredients on top. with all da wet seaweed. eww. cindy said the seaweed was "satan's hair". omg. lolz. then took lots and lots of photos. haha. and gabriel n i were like laming everyone. haha.
took bus to cck with guojiao, huiling, gabriel and jolene. again we were laming in the bus and i told them bout piglet without fingers. lolz. and that malay guy behind me was like trying not to laugh. haha. gabriel is one farnie n adorable p6 guy man. haha. then me, guojian and gabriel went to walk round lot 1. somehow ended up in mac for dinner. haa. thx to the two of them, now i have this point system thing too. haa. (:
home.
i cant bring myself to do that again.
its not u. its me.
// jiayou jiayou.
// easter bunnies. -hop hop-
// whats 1+1?? 3!!! xD
shall pract all instru[s] tmr. tata.
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Friday, March 04, 2005
stalkers. go to hell.
where's ms beh n mr seetho =(
luwei: if a bird flies by and poops on my head, it'll slide off, coz my hair is so smooth.
me & siti: LOL. wth =x
btw. happy birthday qinyuan and cuifen [ytd] and yew chin!! =)
i passed my accounts [poa] overall. lolz. okk. think shud mean i pass all my subs except dnt since i'm so hopeless in it can. rahs. dunno la. i got a B4 for phys+chem! nothing to be proud of. lolz. and i got a 23/30 for english common test compo. hur. and to think i was complaining that i didnt even finish it. ok shut up rebecca.
band was cool. we had combine with mr lim w/o the trumpets, flutes, bassoon, oboe n percussion. so yeah. it sounded weird and stuff. and coz the piccolo + flutes + oboe werent there, i was the next highest pitch instrument. sooo. mr lim cud pick on me easily. rahs.
sectionals was funn. i took seniors part today. yays. coz i dont have much parts bahs. lolz. anddd. yay yay. -claps- clarinet sect can do da 1-2-3-4-5-6 and 1-2-3-4 triplets straight. (: wahah. hope they'll rmb these during combine so mr lim will be like speechless. muahas.
someone [protect name la. =x] was stalking my dear fren just now. argh. like hello. it was freaking scaring can. that guy literally ran after her and she didnt know he was behind. me and nathasha were like omg! omg! he's gonna kidnap her! grr. wahah. and the day is saved, thx to her god-kor. (:
o right. my sister got a 49/100 for her maths. i dont blame her coz maths just doesnt run in our family la. hurhur.
// zeting = stand-less. =x
// stalkers shud get a life.
i'm not alone. (: byes.
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Thursday, March 03, 2005
2nd syf rehearsal with st margerets'.
-whistles- lalala.
chem, el and math cher didnt come today. and mr seetoh is still sick. 2 weeks already. heard from other teachers he got dengue fever. =\ haiyohh. and they cant contact him. yikes. take care! (:
and i failed accounts. 18/40. same as maths. arghh. bleh. i dont blame anyone though. why shud i since its my fault that i didnt study at all. yeahh. so yeps. =)
band was okies. warmed up. then went to conference hall for a rehearsal. st margerets' was with us along with bedok north. so. we rehearsed. and they watched. then st margerets' rehearsed. they played Merry Widow. lolz. siying was like so excited can. haha.
that once familiar greeting (:
to hayati.
no one is useless. or hopeless. no one.
// beautiful soul*
// i really shouldnt believe those.
-swings- band band band. =)
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
2nd post. again.
if u show me this attitude,
i'll show u this attitude.
if u'll never learn,
there's nothing i can do either.
i told u so many times but u refuse to listen.
so i cant help u either.
i dont care about retribution from wateva.
not anymore.
and please. stop bursting my damn bubble.
lately i'm blogging a lot of 2nd posts. hur.
and i'm turning kinda bitchy.
like some bimbo or what.
wonderful haha?
and i've deleted 'my thoughts' blog.
so i'll just blog whateva i feel here.
so yeah.
everything is going to be changed.
everything.
- i love you
fifteen yrs
poa common test.
cause you'r everywhere to me (:
i found my chinese compo in between the class diary! yays! thanks God!! =)
had my accounts [poa] paper today. wasnt that bad i guess. thot teacher was kidding when she said we wud be spenting like 35 minutes on MCQ. she wasnt. every qn have to think for quite long one. haha. i cant remember wats bank under. assets or liabilities. boo. and my final ledger balance sheet. got something wrong. sob. only $2 difference leh. so close. how. =(
slept in social studies today for the first time. guess my ears aren't tuned in to listen to lessons on sri lanka and india and dunno wat tigers. lolz.
got my physics paper. ms lai said oni bout 10 ppl passed. i passed. but. i just scraped a just pass. ): sob. so disappointed. wud have expected more for my physics than chem. and now its the other way round. sob. laala. class tests can pull up. yays. =)
guess who got highest. my dearest eeyore! -hugs marion- lolz. xD
went to lot 1 with elaine. looked for class stationary stuff. planned budget. wahhas. perfect. haha. then met siti and went to pizza hut. we all ordered that student Set B. oni i took lasagne instead coz spagehetti looked like one hell of too much food. rahs. siti got that spicy drumlets for herself n i got meatballs. muahas. dig this. i ate 6 [cheesy] meatballs, elaine 6 [ 2 were cheesy] , siti 4 . o gosh. i will never eat meatballs as long as i live again. or cheese.
saw leon and leon saw me. lolz. (:
went for violin. teacher was ultimately shocked when i told i was skipping gr for piano too. right. listen. i mean erm. watch.
me:: urh. i not taking piano exam le. i skipping grade.
teacher:: huh. means next year u take all four music exams at once??
me :: yeps.
teacher:: huhhh. u can cope anot?
me :: think can.
teacher:: erm.. o.. okkk...
me :: i taking o levels next year. -grins-
teacher:: HUH. u sec 3 meh?
me :: yaa.
teacher:: huh. o no o no o no. cannot cannot. must rush!! must rushh!!!!
then straight away he throws me all gr7 scales all at once. wah lao. D major is 3 octaves. first 2 octaves in 3rd position. )= and last octave is in. 6th position which is freaking high. 6th ok. 6th 6th 6th. [or 7th? hmm.] i've never ever used that one b4 coz my pinky finger realli cannot reach la. sooo. teacher says i have to slide my thumb to the other side rite under for the last few notes. how pathetic. hur.
i will cry to death when that day comes.
// musically. technically. changed. =)
going conference hall tmr. yays. hope i dont get the jitters like b4. =\ lolz.
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
2nd post.
and when i really do attain that.
i will say straight into your face.
SO WHAT?!
i will remember today. march the first.
- i love you
fifteen yrs
demerit-and-merit-system starts. (:
mr seetoh still isnt back. haaaa?
there's this new demerit-and-merit-book which the discipline head has to carry around. thank goodness. i dont wan to carry that and class diary. haa. soo. good luck darren. (:
did my MT compo well for once. coz i dont just wan a freaking C5. perhaps a B. from my usual d7/e8 since sec1. yeps. and poor mr choo. he was mine, elaine's, zeting's n weihao's walking dictionary. o yes. and now i cant find it. i'm so dead. maybe its between the class diary papers and i left it in school? -hopefully-
o noo. god please let me find that compo. ):
alright. first day of demerit point system and the almost all the boys kana straight away by chem cher. hur. and luwei is such a nice guy. thx for helping me [and elaine lolz] to return da books! =)
oso waiting for luwei to collect all da class fund money. then me n da decorating committee will go on a shopping spree. i cant stand the red chinese new year stuff. yucks. -tears it away-
got back some results. maths. 18/40. not bad ok. petaining to the fact that my class oni has 7 passes and the highest was 29 oni. hur. miss beh is super disappointed in our class. yeps. rahs. threw away 4 marks coz i didnt evaluate. bleh. social studies. rahs. 18/25. YAYS. unexpected. then chem paper. got an unexpected 17.5/25 when i didnt study chem. woah. super tyco la. but think will be pulled down from a beautiful A to C coz my class tests sux. lala.
band was okies. played this something enemy gods thing. cant rmb. then phantom. mr lim say he might wan this two pieces for some POP parade concert. dunno. lolz. ruyu's getting the piccolo!! congrats dearie! -hugs- rahs. made me realise that next year must hand down my dearest Eb clar le. sad. la. gave charles gillian's alvamar score. he was so so happy. u shud have seen his expression. lolz. then singapore rhap. worked on that 1.2.3.4.5.6. was so fun. haha. me n laypeng were like 'playing along'. lolz.
when u come back to school with nothing,
remember today.
piano lessons. yeps. i'm not taking gr6. going to gr7 straight. and so is my violin. not taking gr6. going to gr7 straight too. yeps. so most prob taking all music exams together next year. all 3 of them. diao. not including music o levels stuff. so make it 4. haha.
aniwae. teacher photostated 'gu dan bei ban qiu' from mega hits 5. its freaking easy can. i sightreaded the whole thing within a few minutes at home. hur. not that i'm boasting or wateva. but realli la. blahs. getting 'qi li xiang' next week. sightreaded it a bit today. kinda easy. yeah. lala. what u expect. its oni mega hits what.
// remeber today.
// jia you. meee. (:
poa common test tmr. lala? die la.
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Monday, February 28, 2005
2nd post.
i feel like tearing up my accounts book.
i feel like tearing up my maths book.
i feel like tearing up my chinese book.
i feel like tearing up my dnt book.
i feel like tearing up the damn class diary.
i feel like ripping the computer.
i feel like banging my head against the wall.
i feel like strangling my sister.
i feel like slapping that irritating guy.
i feel like running 1000 rounds around the field.
i feel like throwing away my handphone.
i feel like breaking my mug.
i think thats enough for a day.
- i love you
fifteen yrs
seniors' o levels results.
warning. very very long post ahead.
went to look at seniors' o levels results at the hall aft sch. ppl were mostly crying or smiling. jiahui got 11 raw. and i think yiinying got 13 raw too. wow. congrats. (: band members did well. yups. sat between ms lai n mrs eswaran and watched how they counsellored the students who came to them. rahs. and it was a very very scary scene. a horrible one. i actually felt like crying. felt so pressurized to be in the hall where students were sitting on the floor staring at that bloody piece of paper crying and phoning their parents. hey. i'm not blaming anyone. your future is realli in that small piece of paper after all. yeah. after a while, ms lai talked to me bout lots and lots of stuff which then i realised how lucky i realli am. lolz. then mrs ng joined in. and they both have this assumption that i'm going to be a music teacher. lolz. okkk. so diao. then oso chit chat with mrs eswaran too. yeps. starting to realli like these 3 teachers a lot le. haha. then there was this student who failed realli badly and refused to go to ITE. and i cudnt look straight at his face coz he looked like he was about to break down anytime n i dont wan to end up crying along with him for no reasons. anyway after chatting with these teachers, i realised i dont want to be someone sitting down there crying and regretting 2 years down the road. rahs. so i shall study. harder. from today onwards. (:
aint i so guai.
school was okies. i guess. had surprise history test. and got my chinese common test results. ya. this is the very first chinese test which i actually studied for, for hanyu pinyin. and. i passed! a 56. which is NOT BAD OK. those who dont believe breathe. -.- wah lao. how can. lolz. i PASSED. woohoo. zeting was like " HUH. U ACTUALLY PASSED?? ". muahas. i dont blame him. u dont expect much from a gurl who oni passed her chinese twice in her whole regent life. and my mom is like "SO. not news wat." wadeva. and i expected more than a mere 56. thot my comphre could pull me up. and i got a crappy 16/30. which is damn far from my usual 25-30/30. yeps. go on and say i hao lian. go on. go on. -beams-
Dnt test. flunked it like nothing. 10.5/40. hur. just as expected. and mr kamar was super disappointed in me. i can tell. guess he was expecting a lot la. hmm.and now i dont hate maths anymore. now its DnT. rahs. thats so wrong. i shudnt hate anything. haha.
anyway. at home i realli cry la. yups. the whole scene of the hall was still in my mind. the graduates crying n smiling. those who did realli well and those who well.. didnt do as expected. just cry lor. nothing. plainly dunno why. and sister was like. " not as if u getting the results rite. " shit u la. u just dont know how it feels.
o man. i ate so slowly today. u had no idea how slowly i ate. hurhur. -evil look-
and beverley keeps saying that i seem kinda sad. from my blog and msn nick. hurhur. got meh. dont have. dont have. haha. mei you. mei you. -shakes-
wo tao yan ni.
when u thot everything was going to be fine,
everything just had to turn out like that.
// all that here n there.
// congrats (:
i want my S.S results. i want. i want.
- i love you
fifteen yrs
Sunday, February 27, 2005
saf concert at esplanade.
weeee. fun day. -skips around-
met up with sarah then went to city hall. yups. we went kinda early. sooo. got sushi. -grins- haha. then went to meet gillian and bedok north ppl [rafidah, pauline, june, khaliesa]. yupss. lala. walked to esplanade. so qiao. met vanessa liu n jinjun. yeps. the anderson ppl. so gillian went with them go eat with da other anderson ppl somewhere else. lolz. lala.
then found out the concert started at 3pm instead of 2pm. thx to van liu =) and erm. THX TO MR LIM -frowns- haha. so bedok north ppl went to buy these chocolate strawberry. haa. then kelly n victor n 2 chij gurls came. lolz. yeah. one flute one tuba i think. yeps. haha. then went to eat at mcdonalds. or rather drink. coz oni kelly they all eat. and kelly eats SUPER SLOWLY. but thx to june who gave her 'moral support'. she 'improved'. haha.
sarah went to meet zhenjun. then we all went to esplanade first lor. then anderson ppl came down le. yeah. oni can recognize van liu, gill, jinjun n huiming. the rest dunno. except just knowing this new guy named nicholas who is gill's junior. yaa. then went in. and regent + anderson + victor got cut off from the rest. wah. so fun. then bedok north downstairs we all upstairs. ya. saw kevin . haha.
concert was real nice. (: haha. but was playing with gill's cow most of the time. and nicholas was kinda watching me behave weirdly? haha. and accused her of having jie-di-lian. silly me. lolz. ooo. they played On The Mall. -cheers- and phantom of the opera which had an Eb clarinet solo! ok nvm. no one heard that solo. oni me. hurhur. yay. cant wait to continue practicing phantom with the band after syf too. haha.
after concert. anderson went different way with us le. ya. made our way to suntec. then rafidah realised she dropped her glow in the dark hp chain or something. then she left with someone to find it. turned out pauline had it. pauline bullied rafidah. haha. lala. then zhenjun n sarah went to VCH first to get something. ya. then we went to KFC. haha. was crapping a lot kkies. haha. june was like "must go JFC!! [june fried chicken]" o mann. she is so adorable. haha. lala. victor kelly and this other bn gurl left first. and we were like oooooooo. haha. then we left lor. walked wrong way and got lost. almost. haha.
went to causeway with sarah n zhenjun. went fer lessons. teacher says i'm not suitable for da student model anymore. so yeah. must get a new instru. wonderful. =\ hurhur. lala. then went to find sarah n zhenjun. and wensheng. haha. lala. went home. no more. ta-dah.
` to faeliq. cheer up kkies. (:
// pauline is the sun. lolz.
// june fried chicken. =x
good luck to all getting Os results tmr. (:
- i love you
fifteen yrs