because you live and breathe
because you make me believe in myself
Because you live, girl
My world...
has TWICE as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live
eight letters three words one meaning -
i know, i love you so.
Saturday, February 12, 2005 computer. screwed.
lalalala.
conference with faeliq gillian n jared last nite. and guess what. i playeddaideewith jared and my little sister. through the phone. lolz. jared won every single game la. proster. =x
weeeee. polished my Bb clar. used toothpaste and blahh. not totally done yet. but still. everyday polish a bit then by end of the month will be nice and shiny le. haha. xD
supposed to go for church. then sister alone at home. AGAIN. -stares- wanted to pull her along. rahs. but she was like. dun wannn. =\ so ended up practicing piano. and my sister was like watching Lavender. urmss. nice theme song. haa.
my computer is screwed. i cant read my emails.i cant go to my links. da media playerwont work properly. the internetkeeps hanging. wth. hmph.but yesss. i can finally play the Dang Ni Gu Dan Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui send to me by gillian. yays. =D
ate with dad n sis at lot 1. met uncle jon and family. LeLe is like WOAH so big already. last time saw her oni 2 yrs old. now almost 5. and she talks a lot. lolz. then watched movie. I Do, I Do. i recommend it to everyone. its so hilarious you'll be laughing like dunno what. was going home when my dad told me he n mum bought a condo unit at westmall there that condo. me n my sis were like YAY. WE'R MOVING! and he was like. i sold it.diao. nvm. then he asked whether i took a maths all of sudden when he usually nv ever ask bout my studies since kindergarten. i said no. and he was like 'you dont??' =\ hmm.
going siti hse tomorrow to find out what teacher teached on friday when i go to school. and i'm so excited. haha. xD
// yes yes yes. i will try. :(
// nan ren quan dou shi yi yang de. hurr.
muahas. lala. -skips off-
- i love you fifteen yrs
Friday, February 11, 2005 a composition.
Once upon a time, there was a family that lived in a big city. The father was a very successful businessman, and the mother acted and modeled part-time. They had a son whom they loved very much. Everything was perfect.
If you believe that real families are anything like the ones in the fairy tales you read when you were young, you're wrong. Parents might start out being kings and queens to their children, but they don't always stay that way. No one can say exactly why, or what happens. All we know is that one day the children live in a castle, and the next day, it's a dungeon. And nobody says why. And everybody acts like it's your fault.
But you didn't do anythoing. You just woke up one day and your parents weren't there anymore. Instead of the good, kind queen, there's a wicked one. The king's throne has been taken over by someone else.
What can you do? You'r only a kid. You could run away, but where would you go? You could tell someone, but who would listen?
So you sit in your room and you hope. You hope that things will change. You hope that your mother and father will come back someday. That those other people who look like them and talk like them will leave you alone until then.
But you can't keep hoping forever. Because hope is something that you run out of. And once it's gone, it may never return. Like your parents.
btw. thx siti very very much for helping mi get all my class notes and stuff coz i didnt go to school today. lurve ya loads. -hugs- faeliq. cheer up! i'm sure things will become much better. =)
- i love you fifteen yrs
malaysia trip.
yay. miss singapore so much-y. (: drank at least 10 cans of carlsberg beer and 100plus this few days. i'm gonna die.
day 1 [tuesday] blah blah. left the house. then custom was ok bahs. then dunno what me n my sister laughing at. haha. then. erms. took bus to muar. yups. waited for my cousin to fetch us. yeah. then reach his house. greeted 2nd uncle aunt and cousins. met cousin's bfs. one looks like yuting's bro and another like my violin teacher. ok nvm. sleeping in da extra room. and my bed is hard. -frowns- o well. fireworks at nite. haaa.
day 2 woke up and watch tv. afternoon just slept on the floor in the middle of the living room floor rite between the sofas . just like that. woke up and realised that a few of my other relatives were chatting around me. all saying what. i've grown fatter chubbier and cuter. like wth. haha. then realised i had one more extra cousin this year who's 2 years old and damn cute. haa. then my other cousins whom i very long nv see le all grown so much. either more handsome or more chubbier. lolz. then zifong ask mi a lot of cuteee qns. haa. went to eat at this restaurant. uncles were making me drink a lot of carlsberg beer n 100plus. and they were practically stuffing me by filling my plate like dunno what. hmm. went back and watch fireworks again. zongyuan [yes that 2 year old new cousin] let me carry him!! i was like !!! ok. and i dont know how to carry kids. so he ended up slowly sliding down from my arms. and i needed my little sister to save me. lolz. zonghong was like so fascinated with my phone. played mahjong! wooo. haha. then just when i least expected zongyuan [the 2 year old cousin] vomited on the floor and kana my shirt. yucks. then watched God Of Gamblers II at 12:45am. till 3am with the younger cousins. changed place. slept in cousin's room. which is so freaking warm. nvm.
day 3 played a bit mahjong. then that zongyuan climbed onto the bed andcrashed onto the floor headfirst rite beside my feet. so damn shocked. then he cried till he got a sweet. like -.- . lolz. watched A LOT of vcds the whole day with the younger cousins. haa. then my uncle kept saying i sec 3 le still wan watch cartoon. then mother said i ZHANG BU DA. wahh. sob. haha. then at 7pm we all watched Mulan while the adults and older cousins went to eat. so got mum to da pao. haa. then older cousin's frenz came over. to play with poker cards. watched the eye II on vcd. i kept grabbing zongyi's pillow then tug of war le. haha. then played go fish and blackjack with sister and zongyi.
day 4 HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAIRUL! =)
morning watch tv. zongyuan is damn scared of my mum now. coz my mum keeps scolding him though he's oni 2. in fact all of my cousins are scared of my mum. see her run away. then afternoon took bus to johor. was mainly sleeping and reading la. haha. then blah blah. got a new orange bag . gees. starting to like orange. lolz. got angry at my sister and whacked her on the neck and everyone was staring at me. rahs. so ignored sister the whole day. hmm. la. and usually no one scolds me back when i'm angry coz they'll lose anyway coz i'm too stubborn. esp since when i hardly get angry. lala. went home and dad bought pizza. mom gonna be overseas for a whole week from tomorrow. so i have double allowance now. hurr. anyone wanna stay over? lolz. realised i'm missing band test today. die.
conclusion. chinese new year this year was horrible. oni 3 families came to visit instead of the 12 or 13. so my angpow money went DOWN by 88%. grr. nvm. cny isnt bout money. lala.
blehx. a few hours left before i leave for malaysia. yeps. will be back onfriday. lala. and i'll bring souvenirs. i think. lolz.
chinese new year celebration was kinda horrible in school. bout 10 ppl [mainly boys] from my class didnt come to school. class diary was like woahh. lolz. then the concert was kinda disorganized. blahs. lion dance was cool. haha. singing was ermm. hurr. then quiz was okies. then movement n dance alumni was nice. yeah.
went to KFC with elaine siti afiqah elisha wenyan arev and this gurl from 3/3. yeah. then went library. almost got chased out. haha.
// dont think too much le. ya.
// take care everyone =)
ya. gonna miss my com. byes. =)
- i love you fifteen yrs
Monday, February 07, 2005 2nd post.
o rite. btw.
if u wan me to go out buy things / remedial / concert / project work / class work / study / sports .
do tell mi 2 weeks to 1 month b4 hand.
i'm dead serious.
coz my schedule is bloody pack till end of this year.
- i love you fifteen yrs
indonesia music. haa.
half day school tmr. yays!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MENGYI! and she got potato chips. jealous.
nicholas needs his bag back by tmr. i'm super sad can. =( rahhs. shall buy a similar bag on my trip to malaysia this cny. =]
got back history test. very satisfied. =))
PE was realli dumb. i'm actually faster if i walk for the last two rounds instead of running. hurr. playing softball next week. cant wait! and keeyang kept pulling down pingguang's and weihou's shorts during demo. haaa.
english test was stupid. i didnt even complete it. grr. dnt was bad. i cant draw 3 dimensional stuff. ok nvm.
music at ACS. got new SCGS gurl who transferred from MGS music. ya. maybe jared will know her. lolz. made a new fren from new town sec named wei zhi. she plays trombone in the band! haha. kept calling her zhi wei [trombone tutor] by mistake. lolz.
music history. watched vcd on Spring from The Four Seasons. studied vivaldi n bach. again. i'm so freaking sick of Bach. =world music. did indonesia today. watch the puppets till me,mengyi+nanhua girls laugh till pengx. haha. fiona from bpgh didnt come. sad man. ahha.had to go home myself coz mengyi going to meet up with someoneeeee. lala. kinda bueno rox. =]
// dont u think so? nevermind.
// bowing on air. lolz.
well ahs. so bored. lala. xD
- i love you fifteen yrs
Sunday, February 06, 2005 2nd post today.
haiz. i just feel that you'r treating me like your younger sister. nevermind.
haiz.
- i love you fifteen yrs
home alone.
stuck at home. grrr.
lala. chinese new year is coming. and my family is celebrating it this year. yays. supposed to go for reunion dinner today. but ahhs. music lesson. so nv go. lesson was ok. a bit pissed at myself though. hmph.
went home. and i'm told to cook maggie mee for myself. hurr. o well. =1
o rite. and now when my computer plays st. andrew's school's american riversongs recording, i will just stop the whole track. coz the Eb clarinet is like. so loudpiercing. and i'm like. -ermmm-
i'm so disappointed with myself.i realised i have already dropped standards heavily in lots of stuff. yeah. dunno why this is happening. but i have got to push myself more. much much more. must recover that one whole year of everything that i have lost last year and put it all into this 3 months. jia you.i must must must. before its too late.
Wishhhh- *SYF - Success! (:
*To be a Shepherd! *Jesse McCartney CD
*Poster - Sean Biggerstaff
*Track Shoes
*Sneakers
*School Bag
*Reebok Water Bottle
*T7 Digital Camera
*New Violin *Metronome-cum-Tuner
*Music theory - Merit
*Do well in exams this year =)