Monday, April 11, 2005
SYF TOMORROW!!
because u made me believe in myself*
o alright. i just told mr lim to read mine, benjamin's and jiahui's blog. by today. dunno whether he will. hope he does though. (:
woke up feeling nervous. though syf is like tomorrow. "i'm nervous" was going on inside me and i was staring at my shoes full time, almost crashing into numerous ppl. and jordan just had to come up to me and tell me "rebecca, guess what? tmr SYF le." wah. like thx a lot laaa. hur. nuan qin tried to calm me down. thx.
couldnt concentrate in class. its not my fault. (:
history cher didnt come. make me rush my Russia essay. evil. poor afiqah and siti were listening to me go on and on bout SYF and i think desperately trying to calm me down in the library? o wells. got over it for a while coz i got hooked onto a Titanic book with afiqah. ha.
didnt get to do our 2.4km test today for PE. thx to some unclear instructions. tsk. so did practices for sit and reach and pull-ups. i did oni 10 la. omg. like so little. tsk. boo.
Dnt was fun. did drawing and so. haozhi helped me loads. thx. haha. mr kamar locked the door in case any of us tried to creep out coz he wanted to retain us till 3pm. argh. finished all 4 designs and was allowed off so rush to band.
didnt went to o level music lessons. and there's a music history test today. o well. who cares. syf more impt. i rather wind up with a big fat F9 on my report card. LOL.
band. ran through once. once oni. then had warm ups and so. thats all. tomorrow is the day. i got to talk to the band with joseph, charles and minfang. (: though i was shaking a bit. like going to cry. BOO.
mr lim said if i was scared what will happen if i become the band major. like a army cant have a scared sergeant. ok it makes sense. LOL. but i always end up not getting nervous at all on the ACTUAL syf/concert day. so yeah. i rather be nervous now. :D
heard 6 bands got silver and 4 bands got gold with honours today. others gold or bronze or COP. woah. lol.
Dear Heavenly Father,
we have worked so hard for the past few months just to bring out this american riversongs for this SYF. all this hardwork just for a mere 10 minutes. We know you didnt send St Andrews' infront of us to show us "look, u all wont be able to do it", but yet instead "hey. its just another sec sch band. so what if they'r a gold band. u play your music."
now it realli doesnt matter to us whether we get a Gold with honours, Gold, Silver, Bronze or even yes. a COP. high or low. all we know is that tomorrow is our one and oni chance we have.
you didnt just send mr lim into this world to become a conducter. but yet a conducter of the regent band this SYF`2005. we know he has done his very best to bring out the music in us, and tomorrow, everything depends on us alone.
Help us Lord, to overcome this stretch of fear which we have buried deep in our hearts. To block out any trace of fear and nervousness, to play proudly, and to play our very very best.
All this in every single one of us.
We trust in you, Lord. Yes we do.
In Jesus name I pray,
Amen.
We Should . We Must . We Can . We Will
i'm feeling nervous again. sigh. mom is trying to calm me down with fish. o wow. -.-"
I really want to play my solo well tmr. i know i can do it. i knowww.or else mr lim will probably skin me alive. i think. will he?
our band not allowed to stay for results. why? sob. i'm upset le la.
// jia you tmr. (:
// one chance. 100%.
10pm. gonna chase band members go sleep. byes.
- i love you
fifteen yrs
